Who I'm Iz

A few details about Zenag...

1) I'm kind of a feminist; I hate when people live by their gender stereotypes. I hate it when girls say, "oh you should know that girls are too sensitive" and I hate it when boys say "All boys cheat, that's just how we are". Though I acknowledge the biologically different aspects of males and females, the socially formed differences annoy me.

2) I'm very close with my little brother; He's like a son to me and I get jealous when he gives more attention to someone else.

3) My mom is my best friend; I tell her almost everything.

4) When I have my own family, I don't want to live in one country for more than 10 years.

5) I'm going to be a doctor.

6) My ultimate goal is to be Minister of Health and it involves political ties; I used to promise myself I wouldn't get mixed in politics.

7) I don't want to work in a country that doesn't have free health care; I fear having to turn away the many patients that can't afford the ridiculous costs of healthcare.

8) Before becoming minister of health, I want to be a doctor without borders/ medicin sans frontieres in developing countries, especially Nigeria; It's volunteer so I don't have to worry about turning anyone away.

9) I sometimes have mental arguments about the ease/difficulty of being a mom and having a full time career.

10) I'm trying really hard to be close to God as possible; I tell him EVERYTHING and then he tells me he already knows and that things will be fine.

11) When I want something really bad, even if it's some as small as not having to pay my full Rogers bill or for heavy rain to stop, I ask God and he always says YES and then I get scared and cry a little, but it makes me love him more.

12) I love musicals, I'm in love with Dreamgirls, the movie; I've watched it so many times, I am no longer allowed to watch it in the vicinity of my mother.

13) My middle name is Agnes, yeah so what.

14) I'm probably the nicest person you will ever meet.

15) I love learning new things, no matter how trivial it may seem.

16) I had braces for 22 months and I don't regret it one bit. I love my teeth and teeth are very important to me in a partner. I will not date anyone with green teeth.

17) I am afraid of falling and never being able to stop.

18) My favorite book is The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver.

19) If I had a superpower, it would be the ability to fly, that way I wouldn't have to wait in line in the airport.

20) I cry.

21) I like to surround myself with positive people and I do my best not to let a friend continue to be bad. I don't like to tell people, "Person X has negative personality Y" without also telling Person X to fix up.

22) I'm too insecure to become a housewife/ stay-at-home mom.

23) I have this feeling that I have to somehow stop being lazy and make a difference in someone's life-- a profound difference.

24) If you want to make me really happy, introduce me to Denzel Washington, Erykah Badu and Mr. Purple Rain himself, Prince.

25) I personify potholes. They look like wounds and I cringed each time I see one and shiver each time I drive through one.

26) Intellectual stimuli is extremely important to me, and if you can give me that, you've got a friend in me.


Until next time,

Zenag

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Politics, n. Strife of interests masquerading as a contest of principles.-- AMBROSE BIERCE

OK, so about my decision to go natural; it is NOT by any means fueled by any political reason!

I love changing hair styles and this seems like a new one that might be fun. Might also be a little "tougher" to deal with than my currently permed hair but meh, everything is hard in life.

Right now, it has been 4 months since I permed my hair, which is a big deal since I normally perm every 10 weeks or so.

My plan is to do the BC at the end of summer, maybe September. Hopefully, I'll be content with the length of the natural growth by then.

I'll post before and after pics when the time is right.

Until next time,

Zenag

I am Not My Hair

So I'm starting a hair diary in my process to going natural. Look out for posts and pics soon.

Until next time,

Zenag


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Never discourage anyone...who continually makes progress, no matter how slow- Plato

Why is it so difficult to lose weight?

Not become the next Naomi Campbell.. I mean losing like 20lbs

I didn't know it would be so hard. I'm not on any yoyo diet or following any lose weight quick schemes. Those never work and when they do, you gain the weight back twice as fast.

I know how to lose weight: eating properly and working out.

I started doing that but really, it's hard to make time for the gym. The eating part is easy. Eat just enough to feel it. Don't overstuff yourself and don't eat high calorie foods.

I feel like I need a gym in my room so I can make time to work out. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I am busy with something every minute of the day. But, with my schedule, I can either go to the gym in the morning--which is weird because I hate the gym showers and I'll be icky after. OR, I can gym in the evening, but then I can't because I have to go home for other responsibilities.

I wish the pounds could just come off.

Anyways, I am trying to lost 20lbs by June. That is two whole months, so it is safe and realistic.

Here goes nothing...

Until next time,

Zenag

I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant-- ROBERT MCCLOSKEY

Hi all!

This is 2010. Such a big number no? Doesn't it sound like the title of film about the future? Clad with robot doctors and flying cars? Well open your eyes and realize it isn't. It is the present and whether you like it or not, scientists haven't invented automatic feeders nor have they perfected personal 3D televisions.

What happens when you meet people who just don't understand what is and what isn't? When they choose to blind themselves to facts that are too clear to ignore (by most of us anyway).

I just can't understand why certain people refuse to see what's obvious... Now I know you're all wondering, what is Zenag speaking about? Well read on blogville...

Exhibit A: A clearly obsessive young fellow who just does not hear or see anything the way it is meant to be heard and seen. Talking to him just does not bring the results one expects. As words escape your mouth and travel through air, there must be some change happening because he receives a twisted version of your meaning. To him, no means probably. Back off means try harder (or differently).

But wait though, I just said I don't like you, I don't want you, I never did and I NEVER will. I can't remember ever being more confident in myself. At best, I originally started talking to you because I guessed you to be a 16 year old boy having a school-girl crush.

WRONG! You are really 2 years older than me and you have no idea how to relate to other humans. You are obsessive and dull!!! You are dull dull dull! You've never had anything interesting to say and I always sigh when that blue and white msn box opens up.

Fortunately for you, I am quite a nice person. I gave you way too many chances thinking you would figure it out. I did however quickly realize you will never figure it out on your own and so I helped you, TOO MANY TIMES. How many times do I need to tell you? How many ways? Being nice with it, rude with it, snobby with it, just plain saying NO!

I'm tired of it all!

Anyway blogville, he crossed a line again today (he's crossed it before but I gently tipped him back, I blame myself). No tip today. I just had to push him over the cliff.

Get out of my life! Really. It's clear I can't deal with you because I'm ready to put these weekly headaches behind me. And I know my friends are tired of hearing these stories.

Wow For the past 3 years this young man has tormented me and taken advantage of my niceness. Well no more. Good bye and good riddance!

Sorry for the boring story readers, just had to get this one out there.

Until next time,

Zenag