Who I'm Iz

A few details about Zenag...

1) I'm kind of a feminist; I hate when people live by their gender stereotypes. I hate it when girls say, "oh you should know that girls are too sensitive" and I hate it when boys say "All boys cheat, that's just how we are". Though I acknowledge the biologically different aspects of males and females, the socially formed differences annoy me.

2) I'm very close with my little brother; He's like a son to me and I get jealous when he gives more attention to someone else.

3) My mom is my best friend; I tell her almost everything.

4) When I have my own family, I don't want to live in one country for more than 10 years.

5) I'm going to be a doctor.

6) My ultimate goal is to be Minister of Health and it involves political ties; I used to promise myself I wouldn't get mixed in politics.

7) I don't want to work in a country that doesn't have free health care; I fear having to turn away the many patients that can't afford the ridiculous costs of healthcare.

8) Before becoming minister of health, I want to be a doctor without borders/ medicin sans frontieres in developing countries, especially Nigeria; It's volunteer so I don't have to worry about turning anyone away.

9) I sometimes have mental arguments about the ease/difficulty of being a mom and having a full time career.

10) I'm trying really hard to be close to God as possible; I tell him EVERYTHING and then he tells me he already knows and that things will be fine.

11) When I want something really bad, even if it's some as small as not having to pay my full Rogers bill or for heavy rain to stop, I ask God and he always says YES and then I get scared and cry a little, but it makes me love him more.

12) I love musicals, I'm in love with Dreamgirls, the movie; I've watched it so many times, I am no longer allowed to watch it in the vicinity of my mother.

13) My middle name is Agnes, yeah so what.

14) I'm probably the nicest person you will ever meet.

15) I love learning new things, no matter how trivial it may seem.

16) I had braces for 22 months and I don't regret it one bit. I love my teeth and teeth are very important to me in a partner. I will not date anyone with green teeth.

17) I am afraid of falling and never being able to stop.

18) My favorite book is The Poisonwood Bible by Barbara Kingsolver.

19) If I had a superpower, it would be the ability to fly, that way I wouldn't have to wait in line in the airport.

20) I cry.

21) I like to surround myself with positive people and I do my best not to let a friend continue to be bad. I don't like to tell people, "Person X has negative personality Y" without also telling Person X to fix up.

22) I'm too insecure to become a housewife/ stay-at-home mom.

23) I have this feeling that I have to somehow stop being lazy and make a difference in someone's life-- a profound difference.

24) If you want to make me really happy, introduce me to Denzel Washington, Erykah Badu and Mr. Purple Rain himself, Prince.

25) I personify potholes. They look like wounds and I cringed each time I see one and shiver each time I drive through one.

26) Intellectual stimuli is extremely important to me, and if you can give me that, you've got a friend in me.


Until next time,

Zenag

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Politics, n. Strife of interests masquerading as a contest of principles.-- AMBROSE BIERCE

OK, so about my decision to go natural; it is NOT by any means fueled by any political reason!

I love changing hair styles and this seems like a new one that might be fun. Might also be a little "tougher" to deal with than my currently permed hair but meh, everything is hard in life.

Right now, it has been 4 months since I permed my hair, which is a big deal since I normally perm every 10 weeks or so.

My plan is to do the BC at the end of summer, maybe September. Hopefully, I'll be content with the length of the natural growth by then.

I'll post before and after pics when the time is right.

Until next time,

Zenag

I am Not My Hair

So I'm starting a hair diary in my process to going natural. Look out for posts and pics soon.

Until next time,

Zenag


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Never discourage anyone...who continually makes progress, no matter how slow- Plato

Why is it so difficult to lose weight?

Not become the next Naomi Campbell.. I mean losing like 20lbs

I didn't know it would be so hard. I'm not on any yoyo diet or following any lose weight quick schemes. Those never work and when they do, you gain the weight back twice as fast.

I know how to lose weight: eating properly and working out.

I started doing that but really, it's hard to make time for the gym. The eating part is easy. Eat just enough to feel it. Don't overstuff yourself and don't eat high calorie foods.

I feel like I need a gym in my room so I can make time to work out. Don't get me wrong, I'm not saying I am busy with something every minute of the day. But, with my schedule, I can either go to the gym in the morning--which is weird because I hate the gym showers and I'll be icky after. OR, I can gym in the evening, but then I can't because I have to go home for other responsibilities.

I wish the pounds could just come off.

Anyways, I am trying to lost 20lbs by June. That is two whole months, so it is safe and realistic.

Here goes nothing...

Until next time,

Zenag

I know that you believe you understand what you think I said, but I'm not sure you realize that what you heard is not what I meant-- ROBERT MCCLOSKEY

Hi all!

This is 2010. Such a big number no? Doesn't it sound like the title of film about the future? Clad with robot doctors and flying cars? Well open your eyes and realize it isn't. It is the present and whether you like it or not, scientists haven't invented automatic feeders nor have they perfected personal 3D televisions.

What happens when you meet people who just don't understand what is and what isn't? When they choose to blind themselves to facts that are too clear to ignore (by most of us anyway).

I just can't understand why certain people refuse to see what's obvious... Now I know you're all wondering, what is Zenag speaking about? Well read on blogville...

Exhibit A: A clearly obsessive young fellow who just does not hear or see anything the way it is meant to be heard and seen. Talking to him just does not bring the results one expects. As words escape your mouth and travel through air, there must be some change happening because he receives a twisted version of your meaning. To him, no means probably. Back off means try harder (or differently).

But wait though, I just said I don't like you, I don't want you, I never did and I NEVER will. I can't remember ever being more confident in myself. At best, I originally started talking to you because I guessed you to be a 16 year old boy having a school-girl crush.

WRONG! You are really 2 years older than me and you have no idea how to relate to other humans. You are obsessive and dull!!! You are dull dull dull! You've never had anything interesting to say and I always sigh when that blue and white msn box opens up.

Fortunately for you, I am quite a nice person. I gave you way too many chances thinking you would figure it out. I did however quickly realize you will never figure it out on your own and so I helped you, TOO MANY TIMES. How many times do I need to tell you? How many ways? Being nice with it, rude with it, snobby with it, just plain saying NO!

I'm tired of it all!

Anyway blogville, he crossed a line again today (he's crossed it before but I gently tipped him back, I blame myself). No tip today. I just had to push him over the cliff.

Get out of my life! Really. It's clear I can't deal with you because I'm ready to put these weekly headaches behind me. And I know my friends are tired of hearing these stories.

Wow For the past 3 years this young man has tormented me and taken advantage of my niceness. Well no more. Good bye and good riddance!

Sorry for the boring story readers, just had to get this one out there.

Until next time,

Zenag

Honesty pays, but it doesn't seem to pay enough to suit some people- Kim Hubbard

OK, so if you read the title and laughed at the comic strip, then you must know what this post is about (otherwise, read the post below).

About 10 days ago, we (of Toronto or GTA) were blessed with our first snowfall. Now everyone knows the first one is always brutal; many accidents, meaning many upset drivers. What's different about this year's first snowfall? Well we are in a recession and anyone and everyone is looking for a chance to make that money. It is holiday season after all.

I know some of you reading might fall in this category: those drivers who like to take advantage of minor situations no matter how unfair and immoral it is.

On that fateful day, I had my first crash. See, a crash is too big of a word for it. Let's call it a tip, because my car was not accelerating. I was originally going at about 20 kph and decided to brake due to a red traffic light. If you know anything about anything (or some physics at least), you will know starting at 20 kph and braking means the stopping distance will be small (smaller than the space I left between myself and the vehicle in front of me).

But But But, due to the snow and the downhill slope, the co-efficient of kinetic friction was small (if you can't figure out what that means, see post below). So now my car decides it won't stop until it kisses the one in front of me. And, it did.

Fortunately nobody was injured. Just a small crack on my headlight and scratches on the car in front of me. I thanked God.

Not wanting to get insurance involved, because yes I DO have insurance, I decided I would fix the other car, so they took some info from me. We live on the same street so all was well.

Now now now, these money hungry fraudsters call me and claim they will have to replace the bumper and the price tag came to over $1000. Puhlease, I can't even spend that on myself at once. (BTW, it is in no way a fancy car). Oh oh, let me take it to my mechanic. No, it's either our dealer or insurance.

Ha Ha Ha, they thought I didn't have insurance. Well I DO and I will not let you use my money to buy your gifts, no way, no how.

Of course you can guess what happened next. They didn't and still don't want to comply. Perhaps, they don't have insurance but their STUPIDITY and IGNORANCE blinded them from reality. If you want to steal money from someone, don't be greedy. DUH!!! Next time, they'll know better I guess. And now, they have no money and nobody to fix their car cause I am certainly not going to give them MY money.

Hahaha, silly them, they thought they would get a free ride. A free ride in a fancy car.

Brownie points if you know where that line came from.

Until next time,

Zenag

If knowledge can create problems, it is not through ignorance that we can solve them.- Isaac Asimov

Hello to my readers (although I think there are none). It's been a while. If you do actually read my blog, then I will say that I will try to update more. I hope everyone in blogville has been well and has been doing their best to make the most of their lives.

Well, now let's get to the point of this post. KNOWLEDGE. Just regular knowing things-academically, socially, globally. It is such an essential part of true living. You can't really get anywhere if you don't know. Each day of my life, I try my best to learn something new and this might be why I love school. Knowledge comes to me and I don't have to go out searching for it. I LOVE LOVE LOVE learning new things, trying new foods, perfecting new skills.

Now, why is it that some people choose to be so errr stupid? I guess stupid is quite a strong word but it almost fully describes what I want. It annoys me to know someone whose mind is so hollow. The brain is the one organ that the more you put in it, the more it holds so why not take advantage of that and fill it. This is your one chance of gluttony without the fears of hellfire.

I must say, I don't have many friends. This isn't because I'm not friendly (in fact I really am) and I've got quite a lot of charisma. I know, I know, I'm tooting my own horn but really it's true. I'm friendly and I have charisma, so why is it that I don't have many friends? Well it's because I choose not to. Well not exactly. It's really because on the intellectual level, I have a hard time getting along with people in my age group.

Generally, I'm more intelligent than those in my age group. I've been told time and again that I have an old soul. I think older than my age group so it's really hard to get along. This isn't to say that everyone in my age group is dumb, no no, you are just where you should be, just not necessarily where I am.

There are really only two and half people right now that I can share things with and have them give me real important and intelligent feedback. Everyone else gives replies that makes me want to slap both them and myself for even discussing with that person. Are you asking why I say 2.5? Well the half is this guy, let's call him 10.3, he's older than me, but only says wise things half the time. The other half of the time, I really wonder what's going on in his head.

Is it so hard to know people in my age group (20-25) who know anything about anything except parties and who's dating who? Is it difficult to pick up a newspaper and learn? Is it too challenging to have conversations with deep and meaningful contexts?

I just want to be able to talk to someone who knows the slightest difference between the American and Canadian healthcare systems or even what the O in OHIP stands for.

Until next time,

Zenag